So many books, so little time…

A few years ago, one of my favorite local photographers Alyson Fink Photography made a post about some great books she was reading. Me being the bookworm I am immediately put them all in my cart on Amazon and ordered them because I love a good book. (Even though I probably won’t have the time to read them until I graduate in the Spring). Being a mom with two little boys, working full time, and taking classes full time doesn’t allow for much spare time to unwind with a good book before bed. I did actually pick one up after they were delivered to my house, and I’ve been working on it for almost 2 years now. I finally have been staying consistent with this one called Present over Perfect by Shauna Niequist.

I am so incredibly thankful that I’ve started reading this daily again even if it is just a 10 minute period of time to cool down and recharge after a long day. This is a book that I would HANDS DOWN recommend to anyone facing any situation in life. It is a somewhat faith-based book, but it also discusses balancing work life with home life, dealing with stress and other people’s expectations, children, marriage, careers, etc. It is incredibly eye-opening and really makes some good points that I could especially relate to. I will be honest, there have been certain paragraphs that I have read with tears welling up in my eyes. I will post some of my recent favorite excerpts below…

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How beautifully written are these words that I’ve fought for the last three years to put into sentences? The reality of this page is chilling.
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This is the most recent chapter that I read this morning and was probably the best advice/few pages of truth about marriages and families that struggle to be juggled between work.
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“It’s very hard to be loved and connected to the people in your home when you’re always bringing them your most exhausted self and resenting the fact that the scraps you’re giving them aren’t cutting it” -Shauna Niequist

WOW. JUST WOW. I’ve struggled for the last few years with biting off more than I can chew with taking full time college classes on top of a full time work schedule and of course maintaining a household with two rambunctious boys and a fiancé AND planning our wedding. I count my blessings daily that Brian is an extraordinary dad. He doesn’t do the bare minimum like most dads I know, in fact he spends more full days with the kids than I do. He cooks dinner most nights when I have class, he cleans up after dinner and does the dishes. He plays with the kids, does homework, and gets them ready for bath, teeth brushing, book and then bed. He is the glue that holds me together. Without him I would be a frantic mess, unable to spread myself far enough to get everything done. He rarely (almost never) does anything for himself, never goes on “guy nights” doesn’t play poker with his friends, almost never even takes a break. He is fully committed to this family. I can’t count on both hands and feet how many times he’s walked into the bedroom while I’ve been trying to finish a midterm or final exam at 11 pm, and I’ve just looked up and cried. Cried because I’m exhausted. I’m exhausted because I have to get up in a few hours to go back to work, exhausted because the kids didn’t want to eat their dinner, exhausted because I feel so awful about not spending enough time with my kids in this critical time in their growing experiences. But every night I am reassured that I am a good mom, and I’m getting my degree to show my kids that hard work pays off. I am reassured that I am enough, and that he will always be here for me to cry on. I am blessed.

I digress… The book has brought me to a more level place mentally. It has opened up some doors for fixing the problems that have come up in my life. It has again reassured me that it is OKAY to say NO. It is okay to be busy, but that no matter how busy you are family will always come first. It also showed me that I am not alone in this struggle of the working mom or parent. I am not alone in feeling like I am spread too thin. I am not alone in feeling like I am not enough. I AM a good mom, I AM a good student, and I AM a good employee. I am enough, I am worthy.

Until the next time!

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Emma

 

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